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This is what my bad days look like. The holidays ended on Monday. Everything is back to normal. Work, appointments, offices, responsibilities. Kim is back at work. I'm home alone again during the day. My legal guardian and the social services office have also returned from vacation. For many, this is simply everyday life. For me, it's the moment when my internal alarm system kicks in again. Not slowly. Not quietly. But immediately and completely.

I'm not writing this to elicit sympathy. I'm writing it to show what it truly feels like to be mentally ill. What it's like to live with borderline personality disorder in a world that offers little space for inner struggles. What it's like to constantly face stigma – and how lonely this path often is. Being mentally ill doesn't just mean living with intense emotions, inner tension, and recurring crises. It also means constantly feeling like you're not functioning the way peo

For a long time, I thought it was easier to go along with everything, avoid conflicts, and try to please everyone. Only gradually did I realize how much this burdened me and that I was losing myself in the process. Setting boundaries isn't easy, but it's absolutely necessary. Why borders are so important? Boundaries protect us from being overwhelmed and exhausted. They preserve our self-respect and dignity.

Sometimes, a day feels "off" almost immediately after waking up. I become restless, sensitive, or overwhelmed more quickly, even though there seems to be no concrete reason for it. I used to judge myself for it. I thought I was too sensitive, too weak, or that I simply needed to pull myself together more. Today I know: Often these are early signs that I'm triggered. My triggers can be present as early as the morning.

Hello, my dears Today I want to tell you about tension in borderline personality disorder. Controlling this tension is a crucial factor in the entire process of coping with daily life and managing the illness. The higher the internal tension, the less control I have over the destructive aspects within me. In DBT therapy, tension is categorized as low to high and rated from 0 to 10. It looks something like this: Between 0 and 3, I'm in a low-tension zone, meaning I'm still re

Hello my love It's been quiet here for a long time. That's because quite a few things have changed in the last few months. I need to start the story a little earlier... At the beginning of the year, my employer informed me that I would be laid off at the end of May 2025, even though I was just starting to recover from a very difficult period of mental health struggles. Furthermore, my personal life was in complete disarray at that time. I was having serious relationship probl