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Are people with borderline personality disorder neurodivergent? - Why I asked myself this question – and how it changed me
I didn't ask myself this question about whether borderline personalities are neurodivergent because I was looking for a new label, but because I wanted to understand at some point why my experience feels so different .
Why my feelings don't just come and go, but sometimes overwhelm me. Why little things can completely throw me off balance. And why I wondered for so long if I was simply too sensitive.
Stefanie Garmatter
Jan 294 min read


BPD meets ADHD - Two neurodiverse worlds united under one roof
I'm not writing this post because our relationship is difficult, but because it's real. Kim and I have been together for 14 years. Our love is intense, deep, and has grown over time. We know we can rely on each other when things get tough. No matter how chaotic or overwhelming things get, we're there for each other. We usually make up quickly, and loyalty is something that's never in doubt between us.
And that's precisely what I want to write about: BPD meets ADHD.
Stefanie Garmatter
Jan 296 min read


Why feelings are so intense in BPD – neurobiology explained in simple terms
Sometimes a feeling just overwhelms me, and I don't even know what's happening to me. A small sentence, a glance, a change in tone of voice—maybe something happens that would be "just" an argument or an awkward moment for others, and suddenly everything inside me is tense, dark, heavy. Everything collapses internally. My feelings don't build up gradually. They explode. I feel paralyzed, as if my body couldn't handle it all.
Stefanie Garmatter
Dec 29, 20254 min read


Negative self-image and negative self-esteem: How my thoughts influence me
I often only realize in retrospect how hard I am on myself. Not just during major crises, but in everyday life. My thoughts about myself run so automatically that they don't feel like thoughts, but like facts. And that's precisely what makes them so powerful.
What my negative self-images and negative self-esteem look like in everyday life
Sometimes it only takes something very small. I drop something. I make a mistake. Something doesn't work out the way I planned
Stefanie Garmatter
Dec 29, 20255 min read


Who am I, really? – Life without a clear sense of self in BPD
There are days when I know pretty much exactly what my name is, but not who I am.
I know what I have to do, what's expected of me, how I can function. But inside, it feels empty. As if there's no fixed self to hold onto.
This feeling accompanies many people with borderline personality disorder. And for a long time, I thought there was something wrong with me.
Stefanie Garmatter
Dec 27, 20253 min read


Dissociation – how it feels to me
Hello, my dears
Today I would like to tell you something about dissociation...
Dissociation is part of my everyday life. Not constantly, but again and again. And each time it feels a little the same and yet different.
The best way I can describe it is this: I'm still here, but not quite reachable anymore.
Stefanie Garmatter
Dec 27, 20253 min read
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